Mastering your System
Projectors are here to master systems so that they can be successful guides for others. Understanding a system to the core cultivates in the Projector the ability to recognize what is going on in the world around them, even inside of the other, perceiving directly how the process of enlivenment might be helped along through awareness.
Dear Projector, if you're reading this, the very first system you need to master is your own physiology. Not by domination, but by recognizing how your Design speaks its nature through your body, through your sensory contact with the environment, as it is received in awareness. We don't do any of our sense perceptions after all, we simply receive them as they are filtered by the Design.
In relation to your environment, you exist in a projection field. Projection is nothing bad (don't be fooled by much of the conventional interpretations in psychotherapy). The projection field is part of how you experience life, as well as your integration into the world - it is a mirror for you. What and whom you are drawn to connect with, how you perceive what is out there, is a reflection of your own state and condition.
Learning the language of your own biology is key to understanding the way in which the Design operates in its wholeness. Recognizing directly that we're all breathing together in a single continuous body - and that it has a nature. This is something that is constantly being communicated to you through the projection field.
You can learn the biological language of this system of life by studying how your form functions in relation to your environment - noticing its cycling through dualities of up and down, hot and cold, stimulation and neutral, acceleration and deceleration, energy availability and rest, intensification and deintensification, movement and stillness, doing and non-doing...
noticing the rhythms, the way things wiggle and oscillate as they pattern themselves, the way in which things respond to each other organically...
noticing the way in which the attention is naturally beckoned towards beauty and the simple, gentle pleasure of sensory stimulation...
noticing the way in which other bodies move and hold themselves up, without getting distracted by the personality layering on top...
noticing that all of this is already available without us needing to create any of it... There is seeing already happening.
All of this is what will reveal to you the nature of the Design, the intelligence that informs everyone's decision-making Authority, whichever one it may be.
Every system (including yourself) contains oscillation, and in that oscillation the Design brings messages of support from the unconscious to the conscious. You might recognize these as felt qualities that show up: your hand suddenly reaching up to carefully support your head, fingers stroking your lips or the side of your cheeks, a gentle rocking back and forth as you sit, feet that suddenly wiggle... and then, as we notice that contact, perhaps a quality of ease showing up elsewhere in the body. Soothing. Stabilizing. More present.
In the general Maya of Mind we pay little attention to these signals. We've been conditioned not to value them and even try to hide them or change them out of a sense of vulnerability or shame for looking weird. We were never taught to simply allow them to be and to drink them in. The Personality and the Design may have been placed into a forced marriage, as Ra liked to describe it, but they can have a communication of care and love. Between conscious and unconscious. Self to Self.
In the Not-Self we can get caught up in the negativity of the mind, absorbed and seeking a way out, running in circles, not noticing how good it feels to simply feel the temperature of our hand on our face for an extended moment of time. A simple gesture, but exactly the right quality of support in the right place at the right time, with the right intensity, not too much, not too little, providing us with an enjoyable portal back to our senses in the present.
In these times of crumbling support infrastructure around us, we may discover innate support emerging from our own depths. Not because we went digging and excavating into our darkness with the mind in the hope of finding the light, but because we made the effort to reclaim our attention back from the addiction to the Not-Self. Because we trained the mind to see differently. Because we opened up the door to awareness and invited the intelligence of the Design into the live conversation we are having with the world in every moment.
The more your mind can reside in the natural movement of your Design and track it, receptive to what it brings to you without overamplifying it, the more you'll understand the operating system we're all embedded in. The more your own nature is integrated within you, the more you'll recognize it effortlessly outside of you. And wisdom begins to flourish in your undefined centers. This is a biological cellular knowing, not a superficial mental memorization of 'how things are supposed to be' or copy-pasted wisdom from elsewhere to try and make an impact. The ocean of neutrino information simply flows through you, and you know what you need to know.
The more you can surrender your eyes to go where they want to go, seeing what they want to see while ignoring the delusional interpretation process of the Not-Self agenda, the more your Strategy and Authority can begin to truly unfold moment to moment.
This is vital for how we navigate the spaces between invitations. As Projectors, we too must be correct moment by moment, even though we might wait for the right invitation for years. In between invitations, what we take care of is our eyes (including our third eye), gifting ourselves the ability to perceive clearly. This is what the other Types need from us. To help them recognize where the unconscious Design already wants to go, and how we might get organized around that.
And all of this begins by recognizing when enough is enough. Recognizing when your system is making the shift from acceleration to deceleration, activity to rest. If you're reading this, I invite you to take a few moments to simply let go into wonder, without trying to create anything new. Perhaps gently asking yourself these questions, slowly, one by one, to nourish your seeing and guide your own awareness:
1) If I let my eyes go where they want to go, wandering around in the external environment, where do I notice the greatest sense of ease?
2) Without mental interpretation, what are these eyes already seeing that I may not have noticed before?
3) What are the physical properties of that? Can I see its color, texture, shape? How does that register to my awareness, without me trying to do or create any of it?
4) If I stay with this just a little while longer, lingering at this contact surface of awareness with the external world, as my eyes easily go where they want to go, might I notice something different than before? Is there something new?
5) After having wondered freely for a little while, how do I feel overall compared to before?
If you took the time to participate in this little exercise, I'd love to hear about your experience.
Enjoy your movie,
Hagen
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Observing the Shadows of Not-Self Generosity
Have you been indulging in Not-Self generosity?
"What exactly do you mean by that?" you may be wondering.
The "Not-Self" can be seen as your shadow-state. Like a shadow may be yours, yet is not you, so too are the adaptive strategies derived from the white areas of your Human Design. Conditioning happens here, and these are places where your mind can cause you to make decisions that are not in alignment with your true nature.
"Not-Self" has a sinister sound to it when you don't know what it means. Sometimes people get confused and think that anything coming from the openness is bad—as if the openness is not part of the totality of you.
You cannot separate yourself from your openness. This receptivity is an integral part of you. It is where you experience life, where experiences nourish you. Here is where you can learn, grow, and develop wisdom. Here is where you have the flexibility to experience life in many ways, and ever learn to master making money in these places, depending on your overall design.
Boy, am I familiar with the suffering (bitterness and resentment, for me) that comes from Not-Self decision-making! As a 3/5, Emotional Projector, overdoing it in many areas of life with awareness now, is how I have learned my deepest lessons.
For example, let’s take my undefined Heart's Not-Self generosity:
Saying I would when I wasn't quite clear that I could, then not being able to keep a promise and ending up feeling like crap.
Thinking I have to go above and beyond what is needed, constantly overcompensating to prove my value.
Not stopping at the specified time for a session, for example, even if I was tired and it was enough.
Not being satisfied with a good enough piece of writing, but spending ridiculous hours stressing over perfectionism.
I remember in school—if I couldn't do a homework project perfectly to my liking, I wouldn't even turn it in and preferred an F to getting a B!
Settling for whatever (or whoever) came my way, expecting less than I know I deserve in relationships and business because my mind didn't believe I was worthy of anything more and was afraid that if I asked, I would either be turned down or miss out on an awesome opportunity.
From mothers to service professionals to athletes to people working in the corporate world, approximately 65% of all humans are dealing with this Undefined Heart Center conditioning in their lives. How much of an effect does the open Heart have on the professional landscape where so many of us are trying to prove ourselves all the time? Stomach ulcers, gall bladder issues, heart conditions, and immune system malfunctioning are symptoms of misusing your willpower, whether you have it defined or open.
Thanks to discovering Human Design, I recognized mentally that the Not-Self adaptive strategies of my mind had a firm hold on my life, yet still, I was powerless to stop them from influencing me. However, in the course of my five years of experimentation, the decisions have slowly stopped coming from a place of Not-Self automatic reflex. I began to recognize what it felt like when decisions started coming from what my Solar Plexus was telling me, once I got invited to the big things in life (for a Projector, this is critical).
I know I can't help undergoing my trial and error process of making personal mistakes, as a 3rd line Personality. In the first year of my experiment, the overwhelming realization of it all hit me like a ton of bricks. The magnitude of the apparent difficulty of getting to live out my true nature discouraged me. The Not-Self cry, "why me?!" of my 3rd-line Martyr Personality was in full effect.
Though it has gotten easier over the years, there are still a lot of adaptive strategies of the "Not-Self" going on over here in my life movie and of the people I've seen come to me. Read on to discover how Not-Self generosity has shown up in my life, and perhaps you can recognize it in yours.
Here's a little keynoting along with my experience of my undefined Centers, and the Not-Self generosities I recognized:
Head Center: Inspiration
Not-Self Themes: Occupied with questions that don't matter
I recognized that discovering inner truth and what is truly inspiring through collaboration with others in relationships is what I'm driven consciously to learn (Personality Moon in 61.3 Interdependence)
Not-Self generosity: Trying to provide answers to other people's questions without being invited first
BG5 Signpost: Losing Focus
If it were completely open: Not knowing what is interesting
Ajna Center: Conceptualization
Not-Self Themes: Pretending that I am mentally certain
I recognized early on that my completely open Ajna simply can't get enough of the concepts in Human Design. Is this something that works, that I can finally be confident about? Through my experimentation and repeated feedback over the years from others; so far, so good.
Not-Self generosity: Doing things like taking in other's concepts in conversation and pretending to be confident about what's going on without first being positive that I am and that the concepts are right for me.
BG5 Signpost: Conceptually defensive
My Signpost as it is completely open: Not knowing what to think
Heart Center: Willpower
Not-Self Themes: Trying to prove/improve myself
I recognize that my undefined ego dances between wanting to be in control and feeling out of control. I tend towards withdrawing from the material path (Personality Venus in 21.3 Powerlessness) with a lifelong habit of endless education, because I love to learn new things as someone born in the Quarter of Initiation, with my purpose fulfilled through Mind. I walk a fine line here, though, because that little center longs for continuous self-improvement and loves certifications that show I've accomplished something that proves my value.
Not-Self generosity: Doing things for others just to prove something I think I want to be (a good person, smart enough, and worthy, for example).
BG5 Signpost: Overcompensating
If it were completely open: Not knowing what is worthy
Sacral Center: Power of Fertility
Not-Self Theme: Not knowing when enough is enough
I recognize that my undefined sacral center is a HUGE source of conditioning and Not-Self generosity. With eight dormant potentials, this has been one of my hardest challenges. Thankfully, I can say I'm getting over the workaholic addiction, not thanks to my mind, though. My body got to the point where it no longer tolerated overwork. No longer can I push through the fatigue or pain of overworking myself, no matter what my mind wants to prove. This body does not want to sit at the computer for hours on end anymore! It won't.
Not-Self generosity: Doing things (work/sex/play) without boundaries around my time and without honoring my body's fatigue levels
BG5 Signpost: Over-Zealousness
If it were completely open: Not knowing what to use energy for
Splenic Center: Body Consciousness
Not-Self Theme: Holding on to what isn't good for me
I recognize my mind rigidly holds on to people, places, and things long after they are no longer right for me. Knowing who/where/what is healthy for me and worth holding on to is something I'm here to learn to be wise about.
Not-Self generosity: Doing things that help me hold on to who/where/what, even when it is time to let go of them because they no longer serve my highest good.
BG5 Signpost: Lack of flexibility
If it were completely open: Not knowing what to fear
Here are the other Centers:
Throat Center: Communication and Manifestation
Not-Self Theme: Trying to attract attention
Not-Self generosity: Doing things to communicate or manifest
BG5 Signpost: Trying to be the Star
If it's completely open: Not knowing what to say
G Center: Love, Identity, and Direction
Not-Self Theme: Trying to find direction and love
Not-Self generosity: Doing things in alignment with others' direction or for their love
BG5 Signpost: Role confusion/Lack of direction
If it's completely open: Not knowing what to be
Solar Plexus Center: Emotional / Spirit Consciousness
Not-Self Theme: Avoiding confrontation and truth
Not-Self generosity: Playing nice (and not standing up for your truth when it's time to do so as not to disturb others)
BG5 Signpost: Touchy and nervous
If it's completely open: Not knowing what to feel
Root Center: Physical Adrenalized Pressure
Not-Self Theme: Always in a hurry to be free of the pressure
Not-Self generosity: Getting things done super fast though it may be stressful for you and others around you
BG5 Signpost: In too much of a hurry
If it's completely open: Not knowing when to hurry
Laveena Lovick
In a split definition (two areas of colored in Centers disconnected from each other) like mine, the Not-Self strategies have a focus in the bridging areas between my two areas of Definition. In my case, the channel of Transitoriness (Gates 36-35) or being a "Jack of all Trades" is one way I have been keen on bringing my Definitions together.
With a wide-split definition like mine, in relationships, my conscious psychology will tend to see the problem with the other person, never with myself.
I had a hilarious yet tragic flash of insight while team-teaching Rave Cartography with Darshana Deborah Mathews today. The Channel of Transitoriness is the strength of the Experiencer in BG5, and the Channel of Sexual Talent in the Not-Self.
I recognized that I left my first husband (1995-2003) because I was dissatisfied with the repeating redundancy of experiences - wanting new experiences other than the same-old routines. Though it was amazing to work on the dive-boat and take people on underwater adventures, I desired new adventures he wasn't willing to go on with me.
I recognized that I left my second husband (2003-2010) because I was dissatisfied with our sex life - I have a rich imagination and again, wanting new experiences led me away from intimacy with him into adventures that he wasn't willing to do with me either.
Both times, my mind found "fault" with them, not myself and I broke those bonds to seek out new ones.
Now through my Human Design education, I know I'm here to be a specialist at advising others using my recognition of feelings and imagination, not the one having all the experiences at the spontaneous invitation of another. I know now that rather than trying to be all things to all people and do everything myself, that I can't do it alone. Now I am content to wait for everything in its right timing, through the recognition and invitation of others, along with my emotional clarity.
Those whispers of the Not-Self mind that are always wondering and worrying, scheming and planning are now drowned out by the clarity of my emotions. No matter how loud my mind gets inside, I know to wait for the invitation and to move forward when I feel clarity. And I know that even if things appear to go "wrong" or I've made a mistake, I've gained valuable experience that brings wisdom to my process and for others to draw from.
Nowadays the Not-Self machinations of my mind are sometimes quite funny, and they are easier to recognize with detachment and not act on. I know I'm helpless to go through the Deconditioning process just like everyone else.
My mind became obsessed with looking at and trying to figure out other people through this new Human Design lens right away, and now years later I still feel awe knowing how much more there is to know. I know it's not about taking more and more classes—which I still can't get enough of yet! It's about putting that knowledge into practice, taking it to the streets, where the rubber meets the road, and using it—not only in my life but other people's lives as well. This is one reason why I run regular study groups open to all my students and clients.
As a 3/5 Emotional Projector, slowly I've come to recognize how my body "Talks" to me, and gradually I have learned to listen, and obey. When I don't, I get exhausted and sick, generally "trying to keep up" with the busy work-work-work frequency that values accomplishment in the external world.
The summer of 2017 semester I experienced this, plunging myself into an exhausted state, between playing the single mom role, puppy-dog momma and running my business. Through the help of a dozen Bodytalk sessions, 5 months of Soltec Lounge use and Non-VIolent Communication education, I discovered what is alive in me. In deep transformative moments over the years, I have experienced intense breakthroughs in being able to see with my personal perspective, and really being aware when I am being skewed to power.
Imagine finally being able to connect the patterns of your life's lessons and accept every single thing that has happened to you and every single mistake you ever thought you made.
These recognitions of what life has taught me has lead to a profound shift in my awareness and direction. I took a break from my assistant teaching and marketing position at the BG5 Business Institute to become their Digital Marketing Consultant instead. That break gave me time to learn how I wanted to support my clients and students' in our journey together in the name of Daring to Differentiate, and encourage more children and parents using Human Design.
Laveena Lovick
Hopefully, me sharing my story with these centers can help empower you in your own experiment. How do we end the suffering caused by Not-Self generosity? Through practicing with our Strategy and Authority in decision-making. Yes, easier said than done. Yet it is so worth the effort, my friends. Discovering what you are truly designed to takes time and trust in life's process.
I hope your experiment is helping bring your shadows to light so that you can find the wisdom potential. I hope that you find the freedom from suffering from the Not-Self mind controlling your life. Thank goodness for Human Design to help guide our decisions!
An earlier version of this article was published as the Tribulations of Not-Self Generosity on JovianArchive.