Being truly different in this world is something we bear, not as a burden, but as an ongoing empowering challenge nonetheless. The most difficult part is communication, crossing the divide between the differences that separate us in order to bring our message across - without abandoning our truth. It isn't easy to understand and be understood while operating from an irrational body-based authority..
One of my Living Your Design students recently told me it feels as though he's undergoing a metamorphosis, like growing a new skin that is still delicate and very sensitive, and yet he has to meet social complexity and harshness with this unexpected sensitivity on a day to day basis. Suddenly dropping the Not-Self armouring can leave us feeling vulnerable and naked in the face of people who do not seem ready or willing to understand where we're coming from. If we add an undefined Solar Plexus to this story, the nervous system can be particularly apprehensive, touchy and nervous about being revealed for who we really are.
The pain can be significant to such a degree that there is very little bandwidth left for actually coming to understand the other, falling back on our own assumptions and projections rather than dialogue and listening - because it requires less energy.
Putting things into perspective: we are shapeshifting back into who we were born to be, reclaiming the gifts that are hidden in parts of us that were deeply wounded - once rejected by the world we now want to intimately connect to. By really grounding ourselves into the material plane. This is not simply a psychological adventure - this is as physical as it gets. It's a process that requires a lot of energy, and so we can expect to become more intolerant at first - it's a biological thing, nothing personal. Yet we have to be aware, or risk falling into contempt.
If you're recognizing yourself in this process, then it is your rite of passage of coming into spiritual adulthood. We are soon entering the next Global Cycle of the Cross of the Sleeping Phoenix, a time in which one of the keys to survival will be finding the spirit through materialism. For those of us who genuinely want to live in awareness and purpose, there is no sidestepping this anymore. Mother and Father's protection is diminishing and will start to be pulled away come 2027. It's time to emerge into the world on your own legs, in your own authority and in material dignity according to your unique spirit.
So far, I've mentioned three undefined Centers: the Heart, the G and the Solar Plexus. If, like me, you have all three of them undefined then you'll probably recognize they operate as a complex. In a recent post Laveena refers to them as 'The Big Three', and provides a simple step by step process to unravel them:
https://www.humandesign.live/posts/19899158
These three strong pain points can weaken one's self-esteem, sense of worth or value, and ability to confront emotional conflict and crises. Each of the shadows that we find in these Centers can prevent you from actually coming home to this planet, wandering endlessly through the mists of insecurity.
The Undefined Heart: 'I have to... in order to be valuable...'
The Undefined G: 'Fix an identity that secures direction and love...'
The Undefined Solar Plexus: 'Live a secret life (while avoiding the truth)...'
This complex brings the three strategies of these undefined Centers together into crafting what is basically a social caricature that reflects the homogenised environment. You shape yourself according to your conditioning in a way that secures you a place of belonging, compensation, and minimised hassle. 'Give them what they seem to want, so I can have and be something as opposed to nothing.'
Then when you get home you can look into the mirror (or every window reflection along the way) to check out the attributes you've adorned and misidentified yourself with to keep up your self-confidence. (Again there's no shaming in any of this, it's just the way in which these undefined Centers express themselves mechanically when conditioned.)
One of the manifestations of this is getting trapped and fooled by appearances. Homogenised society pollutes the collective projection field with all sorts of deceiving and distracting images that glorify the Not-Self. People hiding behind convincing facades of status, class, power, wealth - disguised in all sorts of material glamour in order to attract, seduce, distract and possess. This pollution does not only fill up our streets with advertisement, but it also fills up our minds with a plethora of conditioned ideas about what it means to be worthy of attention, support and financial compensation.
And the Not-Self makes its bargain plain: here are our ideal models, strive to look and behave like that and along the way we'll find something you can get paid for. If you don't, we'll ridicule or marginalise you. All homogenised conversation essentially ends every other sentence with 'good model' or 'bad model'. Thumbs up, thumbs down. I think we're all very aware of the mental judgment that goes on in everyone's heads.